On the verge of another turning point in my life..Planning to leave my native place Ernakulam once more...
Reason? Need a change in the profession..Not sure what to expect in a new place..still will try out..
Hope all will be well..

Living on

Had a long break here...
Reasons: Laptop got damaged..busy with job...
Got a desktop this week and here I am...
Status: Still the same old dreamer...dreaming on...
hope to find my partner..I know I am getting older...but as long as dreams are alive, I too am....

As time keeps flowing

Looking at my blog today, I realized there has been no updates this year. We are in July and that makes it almost 7 months with no entries here...

As usual, met some new guys. Some false positives, people who were potential long term partners, but did not clinch the deal. Some flirtations, some great fun..

Where am I??

Years after I started out on this journey, I wonder where I have reached. How do I find out?

Did I get what I wished for? Not yet......

The journey so far? Well, it was a roller coaster ride. So many high points and some real dark plunges. As in any journey, I have been to some great places. Met some lovable minds, some con-artists, some by-standers..

Wherever I am, I do not intend to stop yet...It does take a lot of courage and effort, not to give up..

But having come so far, I sure can keep going...

Bold and curious...

That time of the year when new faces come on the arena. Most are curious, confused, anxious, shy. But they are bold enough to give it a shot. Some discover their true self, some can not face it though they know it and some move away....

Slow and steady..But where is my destiny?

Slow and steady????

I would say so. Having fun with guys more often. One of the benefits of living alone, I guess....

I would still prefer a steady partner. But until that happens, the show must go on......

So the journey is certainly steadier and so are the perils.Dangerous curves, gutters, humps, small mishaps. But how can I stop until I reach the goal....

Will this path lead me to my destiny?????

Another year...

Its a fresh year, new hopes and dreams...

I must admit I am surprised to see the level of ignorance that exist among the sexually active and curious sections of our society regarding the sexual minorities. If only we could do away with the prejudices...

Here is wishing all a very happy New Year and a great future....

The changing scenario...

The ball set in motion by the Delhi High Court verdict is slowly gathering momentum. With the Government of India opting not to challenge the verdict in the Supreme Court, it appears that homosexuality is finally going to be de-criminsalised in this country. It is a small step in the fight against prejdice and social stigma that haunts sexual minorities in India.

A slightly more inclusive and sympathetic approach is evident among the media and the Hindustan Times advertisement is a laudable effort in this regard. Such subtle but powerful nuances shown in national television can definitely help our cause(the same is true for negatove campaigns like TVS ad as well). It will take years and may be decades for us to be able to come out and live with dignity in our own villages in different parts of India. Yet, the hope that things are changing for the better is a great promise for our future.

Here is wishing the gay community(of which I am also a member) all the very best..

A busy monsoon...

We had great monsoon for the better part of last one month. The rain lashing down havily, flooding the roads, causing havoc and wide spread illness(fever of the worst kind is an epidemic at Kozhikode now), cool, dark cloudy days and thunderous nights..

The gay scene has had a much needed reprieve with the Delhi High Court de-criminalising homosexuality and the Supreme Court endorsing the verdict. As usual majority of the politicians and the so called socio-religious leaders are totally clueless about the larger issues involved. The Indian Government is hoping that the Supreme Court ruling would give it a decent enough excuse to wash its hands off the matter. Anyway, I am delighted that a small milestone in a rather long and difficult journey promises hope for millions like myself.

Personally, I had a rather busy monsoon both in my gay life and the other life(yea..I do have a dual life to live, yet). Witnesssed a traumatic incident in which one guy sought to rob a gay of his money, threatening dire consequences since homosexuality is illegal(this happened two days before the Delhi High Court verdict).

I met a guy who hoped to be a life-partner and am still unable to decide whether we are suitable to each other or not. Hope I would be able to take the right decision soon...

Otherwise, so many contacts over the phone or chat. Sadly even now I come across guys who put up totally wrong details about themselves in their profile, especially regarding age, marital status, sexual preferences and even misusing other people's pictures as their own(I am not talking about using pictures avaiable in internet sites as a profile picture, but using those of one's real life friends and aquaintances without their knowledge).

It is indeed a difficlut jungle out there and a reasonably compatable partner is proving to be as elusive as ever...

I am still hopeful, because without hope there wont be anything to live for...

We too are humans

I have been disturbed by the new TVS scooty ads featuring Sania Mirza. No, it is not the glamourous Sania that caused some stir in me, it is the climax of that ad with one guy expressing such inhumane disgust towards an apparent suggestion at male to male contact. Really, the ad is so prejudiced and biased. The model in that ad has acted his part brilliantly and the pain is all the more acute for homosexuals like me.

It is time for the society to be a little bit tolerant towards the sexual minorities. Such ads and films that depict homosexuality in the worst possible light do great injustice to the brittle and bruised minds of those who are living a double life. We too are humans and we deserve every bit of respect and dignity as anyone else..

As for the gay scene, it has seen abundance in the number of chatters and telephonic daters. Also, I did meet someone recently. Last week I got the opportunity to have some fun with a guy and we utilised it to the fullest. It was great to have someone with me and we had a nice time together.